Lonely can be a funny state,
You have space to share the depths of your feelings,
But you choose to sit with the darkness,
Lonely can be a funny state,
Mostly because it’s safe
And much less terrifying,
Lonely can be a funny state,
A cocktail of emotions you can’t pin point,
But, full of things you want to avoid,
Lonely can be a funny state,

Finished Maame by Jessica George, it’s a quiet story about what it costs to be the “strong one” for too long, and how easily you can lose yourself while doing everything right for everyone else. Maddie doesn’t break all at once, she chips away at herself in small, acceptable ways until she’s forced to face what she actually wants. What stayed with me is how long she ...

I thought I would be over it by now,
Over the anger and frustration,
Over the hurt,
I thought I’d be excited about things again,
I thought I’d smile a real smile,
Over the shallow words,
I thought I would feel more like myself,
I thought I could look back with a fuck you,
Only…I’m still shattered l,
I thought I would have fond memories,
I th...

We’re obsessed with youth, not vitality, not health. Youth. And it’s costing us. We shouldn’t be competing with 20 year olds and I don’t want to be. My focus is myself and to be frank, my peace. Because the truth is, much of what makes your life meaningful does not even begin until later, that’s not to say that life is meaningless in your 20’s, it’s more that so much ...

I lay in bed,
And wonder, what paths I chose to take,
That has lead me to be laying in bed alone,
Lonely, with no one to bare my soul to,
But the truth is,
No one deserves me,
Not from ego or conceition,
But from knowing what I bring,
Knowing that I shouldn’t have been mistreated,
Sharp tongued words, I still carry,
In the silence of the nig...